Happy Monday, friends. How was everyone’s weekend? Mine was…..well, it was fine I guess.
I’m having a hard time finding positive things to say, to be honest with you. I didn’t do much this weekend. Date night with Riley, a coffee date, some shopping, cleaning, a visit from my mom. All good things, don’t get me wrong.
But then there was this.
Unless you live under a rock (or for my international friends who may not know what’s been going on), a woman was murdered this weekend in Charlottesville, VA. You can get caught up here if you’re not aware, but judging by the news and my Facebook feed, everyone’s pretty up to speed on the white nationalist, neo-nazi bullshit that took place.
I’m literally sick to my stomach. I tossed and turned all night Saturday and woke up in a cold sweat after a nightmare of someone getting rammed with a car. It’s the first time in a really long time I’ve had a nightmare about something that actually happened. I can’t help but wonder….if a bunch of black men had dressed up in military fatigues and armed themselves with automatic rifles and lined the streets, how many of them would still be alive right now?
Maybe it’s the fact that Charlottesville is so close to Williamsburg and it’s hitting close to home that something like this could happen here. That these old, historic, southern towns of ours have a much darker history than most people want to admit. We want to believe that racism is behind us, that we’re making so much progress as a nation. There has been some progress, but it’s nowhere near good enough.
Then there’s the fact that the president blamed it on “many sides.” I will admit that there are many “gray” areas in life, but this is not one of them. This was ugly, racist, hateful, and disgusting. I hate the fact that people like this might live in my town. Might go to my gym, live in my neighborhood, or be acquaintances and I have no idea. I hate the fact that I’ve listened to people make racist remarks in a public setting and I’ve been too shocked and taken-aback to have the guts to call them out. I promise to do better from now on.
I don’t want to dwell too much on this today. A lot of people have expressed their views much better than I could right now. I just didn’t want to show up today and share some photos of my pets and quiche and act like things were just swell. There are a lot of reasons why America is a great country, but we also have a very, very long way to go and this weekend was a truly sad and somber reminder of that.
I hope and pray that those involved in this weekend are ok. I also hope and pray for the soul and future of our country. I know we can do better.